Oh, Where To Begin?
I’ve been avoiding my blog like it’s the plague. Why? Life has been rouuugh. I don’t know where to begin, how much to explain, and how much I can emotionally handle discussing issues at this point.
Here are the two things I can say:
1) I am totally in love with our daughter. I would say she is an average baby as far as crankiness goes. She has really hard times of day and she has lots of reflux, but she also loves to smile when her belly is full and not bothering her. She sleeps well most of the time. All in all, we are very tired, but we realize that is part of the deal right now and we are both amazed by our little cutie.
2) I have had the worst time imaginable breastfeeding. Don’t let me scare you if you would like to breastfeed: go for it! I am a very unusual case (and no, I don’t have a third nipple or anything like that). I even stumped three lactation consultants at one point. It has been 6.5 weeks of the perfect storm of every possible problem: latching problems, weight gain issues, dropper feeding, bottle feeding, pumping, callouses, creases, cuts, blisters, variable milk production, Raynaud’s Phenomenon, thrush and more. This is mainly why I haven’t blogged. I can’t take any more suggestions, advice, opinions, etc. because I’ve tried just about every solution out there ranging from positions, postures, tools, techniques, and more. That may sound mean, but really, I spend more time with my new best friend, the lactation consultant (free service at our hospital–hallelujah!), than I do with anyone else. Juniper is finally good in the weight gain department, we’ve made HUGE strides of improvement, and may have had a break through this past Thursday. Here’s hoping it continues because we’ve pretty much tried everything at this point. Please pray that it does!
Side note: I’m currently blogging at a coffee shop/bar, ALONE for the first time, enjoying a Lagunitas IPA while Seth is watching the baby girl to give me a much needed break. He’s pretty great!
I leave you with some pictures of the sweetest baby ever and hope that blogging will once again be more routine for me:) These pictures are in random order from the past 6 weeks.
PS- We are making a 10 hour drive soon with a 7 week old. Anyone have any travel tips?